Today is Wednesday of the work week, but it's like Monday for me since I took off a couple of days. The weather is gorgeous, one of those days where you just wish to stay outside all day. I don't even know what I want to write about today, so I decided to just start typing and see what happens.
One of my blogger friends mentioned one day that she was "selective" in the things she chose to put in her blog about her kids and their life. Since then, I've realized that I, too, am very selective about what I write on here and how much of me I actually allow readers to see. I tend to only let you in on the good things that happen or the positive thoughts that I have. And the more I think about this, the more I realize that I do this in real life also. I don't know why, but for some reason I want the people around me to think that everything in my life is great and wonderful all the time. When I have difficult things going on in my life, I try to hide it from my closest friends and even family. But then sometimes, when I've held the bad stuff in too long, it will come out in tears when I least expect it. Maybe I would be better off just sharing my problems with someone rather than trying to make people think that my life is perfect. If anyone has any psychology education, maybe you can tell me why I am this way. I think one reason I am this way is because I don't like to be around people who are negative all the time and complain constantly, so I try really hard not to be that way. Maybe I went too far the other direction. Anyway, just in case I've made anyone think that my life is smooth sailing all the time, it's not! I have big problems sometimes, and as much as I hate to admit this, I have sinful thoughts that pop into my head sometimes. I wish I didn't, but thank God for giving us a Savior who will forgive us of our sins and who will carry the burden of our problems if we just let him.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)
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